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2017-04-04 11:16 pm
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confused and tired

it's been so long since i post something new here and i kinda miss writing but not that much since one, my english is still the same probably improved a little but don't know. and second i'm just slaved with my own life.

anyway! i was surprised this morning with the news from lj and honestly i'm somewhere between understand and confused (and a little bit more frustrated with that news, cause WHO NEEDS SOME CHANGING!!) But then again, i'm this kind of girl who wants to know if there's any other way to keep everything stay as it is. i really need some helps, lights here because well i already have a back up plan but i just love lj (old lj) and finally have a green light with some great people (AND THANK GOD FOR THAT! I WILL DO ANYTHING TO KEEP THAT AS LONG AS I LIVE! THAT'S FINAL!) and i don't want this... this... god i really want to swear but i just can't... OTL... i don't want this ruined everything. 
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2017-01-06 10:19 am
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This Is ME~

Simply an ordinary girl. Talk is ok, but i preferred to become a good listener (kicked). Still working with my soo colorful (read complicated) real life and fandom (i have unstable income and personal problems). Just say i'm quite childish or late(?) Mature (i never know when will i be) XD~♡ (the same girl with LJ ymchii_01 and AFF yhamu01)


IMPORTANT!
A HARDCORE YAMACHII AND YUNJAE SHIPPER ♡! CAN'T SEE JAE AND CHII TOPPING NOR YUNHO AND YAMA BOTTOMING! (but still, anyone with other preference will have my respect. Especially with a good story. But it won't be my favorite :), i just hope i won't find them ^^).
I LOVE READ FANFICS (currently most favorite genre: AOB Verse. Mpreg. Other long last favorite genre: anything as long as yunjae and yamachii though XP). I love writing though i need more courage to post them. But lately it's been hard for me to continue since I LOVE READ THEM MOST NOW! MWAHAHAHAHA! (That's one, another is simply because my colorful real life).

I LIKE COMMENTING! (but please spare me with my english and my not really flexible time, but i will try my best!)



That's me for now~♡
Let me say, IT'S NICE TO MEET/KNOW/FIND YOU~ ♡ (i like to play with words though sometimes i know it's weird. Hopefully i won't offend anyone ^^) i can be anyone friends. I could be funny or serious depend on situation. Mostly.. i will be myself though mwahahahaha! (Whacked). Sometimes i thought myself as water in a calm river and just following the flow. Or a calm breeze in the spring?............Naah, it's way too beautiful (and i'm not that beauty, nyahahaha~ (kicked), i like water more. Besides, I'm aquarian~♡
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2013-04-28 12:43 am
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2013-04-02 03:46 pm
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CONFUSE!!! and APOLOGIZE!!

Okay.. first, i really wanna apologize to my friends, which is i have an unfinished comment and also a promise to give my opinion about alleviate poverty if i'm not worng and a greeting for their important birthday.. and last night. i have one interesting topic, my friend ask me about the war between North Korea and South Korea.. and yeah.. that's a looong discussion.. and i remember the alleviate poverty.. *feelingdown* i'll be honest, i almost forgot about my promise ([livejournal.com profile] chocokuu) and my unfinished comment ([livejournal.com profile] chii_mao_13) .. but don't get me wrong, because this and that.. and that and this.. right now...

etoo... how should i say about this.. ==
just the point is.. there are things between Me, German, and America.. and i hope i could be forgiven by all of you..

And then.. About the fics? it's End already!! and i have some one-chot, songfic, trust me!! but all of them right in my beloved phone.. ==, i really should move it some other time.. i tried to post by my phone, but.. IT"S TOTALLY FAILED!! i don't want to discuss it.. it's a terror.. and i do prefer to commenting using my phone because i could use some emo and it makes more expression so you'll see me sometimes.. but lately.. i think, it's time for him *my phone* to take a rest, and got some best treatment, massage? even spa maybe?, so he could back to work.. with new energy(?), new condition, new spirit(?) and so on..

okay.. i think that's for now.. i have this headache since yesterday.. gooodd.... help me...

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2013-01-12 06:43 pm
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Need HELP!

i know.. i know, i've been hiatus for a very loooooonnngggg time.. but believe me, i'm kind in the middle of "WAR" right now, it's not the war between countries or such but well yeah, School/University stuff, and my HUGE PROBLEM right now is the LANGUAGE! aaarrrgghhh! but i need to keep fighting nee!! *GANBARIMASU*... i want to deeply apologize for everything, late update, late reply, everything that late.. *==a* *bows*

to the point why i'm posting this.. is because...

"COULD ANYONE PLEASE HELP ME FOR TELLING, GIVING ME EVERY INFORMATION ABOUT JAPANESE/J-POP/JE/*more specific* HSJ CLUB OR ANYTHING THAT RELATED BY THAT IN GERMANY, ESPECIALLY IN BERLIN, FREIE, FRANKFURT oder München?"

why i turn my capslock on is because i'm desperately to getting those information.. really.. i couldn't find even just a little information about those in germany... i couldn't stop or getting out from this fandom, i just need JUMP for my motivation, for my one side of my world, for my relaxing times, for keep supporting *and me keep supporting them*, for me to not givin up easily, and everything.. so, is there anyone that could help me? Thank you for all... *bows*
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2012-10-22 09:09 am
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Sleepover thing AGAIN!!!!! (>̯-̮<̯)

>> About when Yamachan went to Chii's house.

Yuma: Did you guys sleep in the same bed? You guys dated before?

Yamachan: Yeah Yeah Yeah... Don't say these kind of things ♥

Chinen: We've been exposed!

Now i'm envy with the interviewer... Also Yuma, the No. 1 Yamachii Shipper...
Keep your good work YUMA!!!!
Cute respond from chii.. Ahhahahaha.. I miss become fg.. Almost done..
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2011-11-29 10:08 pm
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Chii's b'day... and Apologize...

First... I need to say...

Otanjoubi Omedetooouu.. Chinen Yuri.. ^^.. Wish you all the best.. Always pray for your happiness... Please be always together with yamada nee.. ^^... Always supporting you from here.. And thank you so much for always make me stronger with your smile.. ^^.. I Love You *glare by yama* and All of Member of JUMP of course.. *JUMP is 10 FOREVER*

And this...

Hahaha.. *laugh bitterly*

It's soo ironic... Yesterday.. I told some people for fighting for ending their problem and smiling again... And I posted my fic.. Only one chapter around 10 am today, that I'm really greatfull, finally have time for posting.. Even though it's only 1 chapter... And from friday.. I got a fever that pretty high that made me crying every night.. I don't know why... I can't blame all of those exam that make me streess, or my school sistem.. I can't be someone who can said "YOU ALL ARE NOT MY FRIENDS!!! I'M SICK WITH ALL OF YOU!!! YOU MAY ACTED SO KIND IN FRONT OF ME, BUT DON'T YOU THINK I'M STUPID, I KNOW YOUR REAL FACE!!!" Clearly straight to those people.. Because I don't want the past happen again...

I know that maybe I can't be a child that can be proud of.. I'm really sorry if I can't be someone like what you want.. It's my fault that I never tell about my problem to someone, neither to my own family... I know that all of you only show how much you guys care about me... But like they said.. Our tounge is sharper than our sword.. And how much words could affected one person.. Sometimes I really want to tell them.. "You don't know me.. So don't speak that maybe it sounds That easy... Everyone is different.. You not me and I'm not like you... Can't you respect me? Even just a little.."

I'm really sick of all of this.. I even can't make something for someone I really admired.. Chinen Yuri.. I promise to myself that I will make a cake for him.. And ff.. It's how I show to everyone that he always give me inspiration and also make me feel stronger even though he didn't know me.. But hey.. It's much better than someone who know me but only make me down, sad, and streess... And now I have to broke my own promise just because all of you? And congratulation.. All of you've succed for making me crying..

I can't hold it anymore... I'm really sorry for everything that I can't fullfil for now or next time.. Now I know.. What is it like.. Having a thought quitting this fandom.. And once again.. I'm really sorry for my late update.. And maybe I need more time.. For hiatus.. I know I'm still newbie for this fanfic world.. Demoo.. I already wrote many fic, but doesn't have the time for posting it..

I'm sorry for this.. 'Heavy' entry.. Demoo.. Hope you understand the reason why I didn't show up and give my comment and posting my fic here.. I'm really afraid if I have to lost of you *friends in here and other Jumpers out of livejournal friends* too.. Please forgive me for all of my speak that unconsciously made you angry or sad.. But believe me.. I always try to become a good person and always try my best to becareful with my word so I'm not hurting you...

Thank you for become my friend... And I'm sorry for ruin chii's happily moment, all of your moment... I hope god will give me another chance next year for making or do something special for the squirrel....
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2011-11-23 08:34 am

SICK OF THIS!!!!

I still have 4 times for international exam.. And now!!! I have a NEW SCHEDULE FOR ANOTHER EXAM from my school!!! WHAT THE!!!! I'm sick of it already!!! And I still need to do some searching of universty...
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2011-08-17 08:59 pm
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APOLOGIZE!!! T^T

Hontouni Gomennasai!!! m(_ _)m.... *bow many times*

i'm really-really sorry for my late Update and Commenting for some of your writing Minna~

i wish i could read all of yours and comment about them immediately, but life is not really friendly to me, for this time... i still have a lot of assignment and quizes *since i was in the third year in senior high*, and i really can't leave it behind and just ignoring them... *of course* --> whacked

i already left some of my "spot" on some of your FF, i hope you guys didn't mind it, i still could open my account only for seeing something new on it, and i'll do my best to finish all of my assignment as soon as possible, and HEY!! it's near to HOLIDAY!!! from august 22- sept. 12.... i will update my ff and writing down all of my comment on yours... *so be ready... muahahahahaha...* ---> kicked. please forgive me for all of this, and still hoping that you all didn't mind if i put my "Spot First.." on your entry....




WARNING: 
terrible english *whisper*

this time i only could write this one, ONLY, *my mom gonna kill me, if she know i'm using internet.... T^T*
Gomen, Gomen, Gomen, GOMENNASSSAAAAIII~
hope you all will forgive me.... TTTTTT___TTTTTTT
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2011-08-05 12:14 pm
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INTRODUCTION *too late*

~OHAYOOUU,KONNICHIWAA, KONBANWAAA~

I'm just an ORDINARY girl, who lived in Indonesia... *i'll give you my japanese name kay?* My name is NAKAMURA AYUMU desu.... Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu... You can call me AMU-CHAN! But also you can give me other name.... ^^ *as long as it’s a good one..* I’m 19 years old this year. I’m in the middle of *this so called* “WAR”, it’s not the real war *pissu*. I’m in the process for my study-abroad, to Germany *praying* and I’ll take FILM AND CINEMATOGRAPHY *YES!! I WANT TO BE A DIRECTOR!! AND MY DREAM IS MAKING A MOVIE WHERE YAMACHII ARE THE LEAD ACTOR AND ACTRESS* *kicked by chii* i need to learn the language, and getting my visa, and prepare for the entrance exam *it’s kind of sad, i need to take this “studienkolleg”first before going to univ., which mean another year for senior high* so.. Yeah, i’m sorry for being hiatus for a loooooonnngggg time, because.. heeyy, who doesn’t want to make your ownDREAMS COME TRUE *:P*nee? But, can’t hold from my desire(?) to being a good fangirl, makes a lot of friend from other country, get a chance to tell/share my story *fics actually, not.. MY LIVE STORY ==a, well maybe some* soo, yeah.. i’ll try my best!!

I LoveJPOP, KPOP,and*ALL* DRAMA/DORAMA *i love manga and anime too!!*

Hey Say JUMP (+NYC) *CHII’S COLOR IN MP* is my NO. 1 Boyband.. I Love ARASHI auch, YAMASHITA TOMOHISA, NEWS, KAT-TUN, DBSK/TVXQ *YEAH! I LOVE THEM!*... my Ichiban isCHINEN YURI... because of... he's soo CUTE and  right now he's turning into a COOL GUY... but please Chii, you’ll ALWAYS be our CUTE Squirrel..*whackedbychinen, and Yama(?)* Y: HE IS MINE!, A: =.= whatever..
My Niban is Yamada Ryosuke *well, maybe it's not 'LIKE', but most.. etoo.. me and Yamada's like, 'Cat and Dog' we could be friend but we could also be rival(?) i don't know.. it's sound complicated huh? ==* and my Sanban is Arioka Daiki... My favourite Pairing isYAMACHIIandYUNJAE... i don't know why, but they're look CUTE together, and PERFECT couple i've ever see.

for K-pop... ummmhh, actually i don't know much about k-pop, because 85% are OST. of their drama.. *hehehehe* and for korean boyband, i only know.. Super Junior, TVXQ-JYJ (They’ll always be DBSK/TVXQ).

I hope we can be a good friend ne~ and hope you all want to be my friend.. and this is the most important, if i’m starting to make you irritated, just tell me, and i'll try my best to change. *and i'm really sorry for my english... i know it's sucks.. but one of the reason why i made this account is for improve my english and deutch *pissu* *i’ll start it little by little, because trust me.. German’s HARD, but it’s FUN!... so, i hope all of you, could understand that...*

SOOO *once again* YOROSHIKU ONEGAISHIMASU...